Being a Mermaid or Take my legs back ?

Most my tarot decks and cards, such as Mystical or Whisper of Nature 

the main lady is always a mermaid 

I assume or confirm surely that I was always inconfident about my legs shape 

but the frame always describes my love story as a mermaid

I was always a mermaid who sit on a rock in the middle of the vast and endless ocean
waiting for a ship
I am even not sure if I was a mermaid, or I just simply hide my legs to be a mermaid 

My nickname is sea anemone, so I guess the ocean is where I belong

as I am likely to dive and keep myself in the water of the ocean, 

into the emotional ocean 

...

My sister asks me to forget the ship, turn myself into another side 

My friends used to say so

that I should turn myself and look at the other side, a brighter side

so the whole world will change when I look at the other way

...

...

I guess it's time I should step onto the land 

on feet 

and take a chair 

to sit and look at the sun instead of feeling lonely, worried, and anxious on that rock 

I love floating on the water

but I can't swim 

after all

it's not a good feeling to float in the ocean the whole time

so 

I need my feet to put on the ground 

and peacefully enjoy my favourite sunlight.