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Most my tarot decks and cards, such as Mystical or Whisper of Nature  the main lady is always a mermaid  I assume or confirm surely that I was always inconfident about my legs shape  but the frame always describes my love story as a mermaid I was always a mermaid who sit on a rock in the middle of the vast and endless ocean waiting for a ship I am even not sure if I was a mermaid, or I just simply hide my legs to be a mermaid  My nickname is sea anemone, so I guess the ocean is where I belong as I am likely to dive and keep myself in the water of the ocean,  into the emotional ocean  ... My sister asks me to forget the ship, turn myself into another side  My friends used to say so that I should turn myself and look at the other side, a brighter side so the whole world will change when I look at the other way ... ... I guess it's time I should step onto the land  on feet  and take a chair  to sit and look at the sun instead of feeling lon...

 He seems shy,  again and many times and so he still cannot touch me naturally  it makes me upset and wondered why things always end up like that but hell or whatever  I shouldn't care  and act normally  I always prepare for the leaving of someone close in my lìfe I know no one could stay forever but this time it seems frustrated since the beginning If the rela becomes too close and suddenly that person leave your world is going to break apart and you have to start to cope with this situation  It's not like you lost that person but you have to be alone again start a life without that person It's hard, tough, and painful :)  I guess that why the more we getting closer, the fear we feel it's clear